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Airmata bagai tidak mahu henti sepanjang perjalanan pulang.
Lakonan telah tamat. Tirai telah ditarik tutup. Seakan tidak percaya bahawa hari ini telah berakhir dengan jaya. Diri mampu melihatkan pada dia senyuman yang paling manis, mulut mampu bercerita, ketawa silih berganti, usikan mampu dibalas gurauan. Walau hati sebenarnya tidak berhenti berbisik: 'Ini kali terakhir kami bertemu'. 'Ini kali yang terakhir.'

Sesekali sebak seakan tak terbendung, dada kuat bergelora. Namun segera disembunyikan wajah dengan berpaling ke arah lain dan menarik oksigen ke paru-paru sedalam mungkin.

Tuhan, saya cuma mahu dia menyimpan memori senyuman saya sebagai tanda ingatan dan hadiah terakhir saya. Bukankah dia sebahagian dari saya? Dia adalah teman, dialah kekasih dan dialah juga pembimbing saya. Tanpanya, dunia seakan hilang warna, pudar, kelabu. Mata jadi buta, telinga jadi tuli, bibir jadi kelu. Kaku. Beku. Bisu.

Adakala ... sehebat mana sekali pun kita inginkan sesuatu, kita harus membuka genggaman tangan ... dan melepaskan dia pergi. Dia bukan milik kita. Demi kebaikan. Pahit harus ditelan. 

THE HARDEST THING

We both know that I shouldn't be here

This is wrong

And baby it's killing me,

Both of us trying to be strong

You've got somewhere else to be

Promises to keep

Someone else who loves you

And trusts you are fast asleep.

I've made up my mind

There is no turning back

She's been good to you

And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To look you in the eye

And tell you I don't love you

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie

To show no emotion when I just want to cry

I can't let you see what you mean to me

When my hands are tied and we are not free

It's just that we are not meant to be

It's the hardest thing I'll ever had to do

To turn around and walk away

Pretending I don't love you

So you can get on with your life

I've got to be cruel in order to be kind

Like Dr. Zhivago

All my love that I'll be sending

And you will never know because

There can be no happy ending.

Maybe another time, another day

As much as I want to, I can't stay

I've made up my mind

There is no turning back

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To look you in the eye

And tell you I don't love you

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie

To show no emotion when I just want to cry

Tuhan.

Warnailah hari yang dilaluinya dengan rahmatmu ... sentiasa.